Writing May 21, 2007

I sit at my desk
thinking
pondering
wondering
what makes us connect
letters into words
expressions and emotions
stringing sentences
creating images
and thus end up writing

An Ode To Online Mates May 21, 2007

tippity tap, tippity tap
fingers flying across keyboard
when I hit Send or Enter
my thoughts are splashed across to you
you in the next cubicle
you across the lands and seas
I am the future girl
GoogleTalk, YM, ICQ, MSN
surely you've met me sometime
if you have come say hi
share a smile a word a ear
.ani unplugged is what you get
this could the catalyst
the start of something
worth exploring

Fragile Silence May 19, 2007

Hush I behest you hush
Do not awaken the little ones
Hush I beg you hush
Do not encroach upon my solitude

Hush I plead please hush
So few are the moments to myself
Hush oh for peace sakes hush
I need to think

Without appreciating my need for this
You come and destroy that very fragility
I cling so selfishly unto like drowning man to straws
My silence broken by the voices calling out to me

Water May 17, 2007

Rhythmic gurgling
Gentle on my ears
I lay here next to you
Dreaming of the trails you weave
Where from do you spring forth
And does your journey begin or end
When river meets the ocean
I am lulled by your endless song
As my dreams of tomorrow
Get whisked away to unknown places
Shall I follow you or lay here still
I cannot yet conclude
Your song now has made heavy my eyes
I choose to dream
Accompanied by your ancient tunes
Chasing rainbows can wait for now
My soul is dancing and so I rest

Monsoon Magic May 16, 2007

blistering scorching heatwave
all eyes turn heavenward
seeking that illusive rain cloud
amongst the endless blue

swirling dust on parched dry earth
riverbeds begin to show
yet again eyes cast to distant horizon
still yet nothing that tells of rain

from dawn to dusk the air is heavy
humidity makes my hair all frizzy
my movements are lumbering and heavy
as the fan swirls back not cool but hot air

Dear God I pray at night
Sweet showers of blessings send tonight
That on the morrow I may awaken
drenched not in perspiration

was that a distant thunder that I heard?
was that a flash of hinting lightening?
Oh joy I hear the first pitter patter
as the thirsting earth welcomes those first drops
dry cracks like starving children greedily soak

smiles cross many tired weary faces
like rebirth; oh beautiful rain
you cool the earth and put song in my heart
like a magic wand you life my spirits
and soon the world is silenced by music from the skies

Rain Watching Apr 03, 2007

beat you rain against my window
washing away the dust that stains my vision
in angry torrents you pour all around me
taking the grime washing my hurts away
cleaned and cleansed a new may
I arise stronger than before
refreshed rejuvenated
as those rivulets of rain
rush away from my shady refuge
lead my aspirations give birth to hopes
seeking and forging unbreakable bonds
of a future uncertain yet pregnant with promise
a calm that resides at the end of every storm

~untitled~ Apr 02, 2007

words spoken actions taken
from a time when the sun shone on tender blooms
here now lay petals crushed
hushed words unspoken
bear the silence of unrequited dreams

You Sept 09, 2007

my mind is filled
with thoughts of you
i know you hurt
please let me help
we'll wipe each others tears
glue back those pieces
shattered and bruised
at the hands of the uncaring

you stoic and silent
push me not away
i mean you no malice
my need of you is just as much
in your strength i find mine
in your silence i find peace

aspiring hope are you
like a blossom budding
your sunshine let me be
tenderly welcoming
watching your emergence
firmly I believe
the hand I in future hold
belongs to none but you

Malaysia is 50 Aug 14, 2007

Fifty years post independence
Still those in power fail
To acknowledge our interdependence
Of peoples so varied and colourful
Each having their place in pushing us forward
Come Malaysia open your eyes
Give each of us our rightful place
We sing 'Tanah Tumpahnya Darahku'
Our blood our sweat our tears
The same no matter from whom it spills
Golden jubilee with pomp and pageantry
Look within, look back, then present and future
Diversity we must capture and sustain
Appreciate and celebrate
There is much more to achieve
As one people, one nation
We await the day when we can proudly say
Bangsa : Malaysia
Happy Birthday my homeland
Let not the blown candle smoke mar the visions
Alive in the hearts of your people

Forced Silence Aug 05, 2007

A million questions
As many assumptions
Preconceived presumptions
Free radical thoughts
Gamut of uncontrolled emotions
We stare at each other
Words building into crescendos
Pushing against mouth and tongue
Rebellious upon our lips
Wanting to speak
Express the mayhem
Withheld in forced silence
Eyes and touch do the talking
Of the sorrows that unite us

What Should You Love Jul 24, 2007

I love the feel of a gentle breeze
Caressing my skin
I love the smell of the earth
After heavy rainfall
I love the warmth I feel
Holding sleeping babies
I love the images and story
Told in a dance
I love seeing the smiles radiant
On faces of loved ones
I love the tinkling laughter
Children unburdened have
I love to know that somewhere
Someone cares
All these things I love
The least I love is me

Relationship Cycle Jul 25, 2007

PART I
You win I lose
The sword’s drawn from its sheath
Hungry for blood
The glistening blade
Finds that throbbing vein
The wailing of loved ones
From a din to distant whisperings
I am drawn into the darkness
Of this unending abyss
Searching for a sliver of light
My actions my words
Bespeak the state of my tumultuous mind
And yet the masses only see with glazed eyes
A mask of plastered smiles and depth less laughter
Envious of my state of being

PART II
You win I win
Same old me different you
Always leaving me breathless
Wanting more
Again they watch you as they watch me
Hoping to see derision drive wedges between us
I’m hopeful you’re reassuring
Your love so healing like balm on scorched parched skin
I ask too many questions
You give so many answers
Patient as ever reaching always reaching
For my heart that I’m afraid reveals too much
Love comes into my soul
Floods my senses and drowns the pains
Like parched fields after a monsoon
Awakening re-emerging embracing life
I feel you course your way through me
Leaving deep ploughed rows
Sown with seedlings of love bouquets
Ever bursting in rainbow hues
Envy still alongside always; keep your distance
Faith, hope and love keep us bound in eternal promised happiness

PART III
You lose I lose
Same old me minus you
Like a cleaver to my chest
I gouged my heart to free myself
How from heaven to this hell
How from smiles to these tears
How from promise to just fears
How did it all dissipate into broken glass?
Tossing and turning
Hiding emotions seeking answers
Too late now there is no recourse
I stand now but with a handful of dust